We had a fun trip to Oklahoma over the long weekend. Got to get all 5 cousins together. It’s so great watching them play. Played some sand volleyball, grilled out, swam at the hotel pool, and took a trip to Pops on Route 66. The walls were all lined with bottles of pop. I heard over 600 flavors! My dream come true.
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| Can you see all the soda? |
I finally settled on Apple Soda. It was pretty good; reminded me of Grusha. High five if you know what I’m talking about.
I’m excited about summer. Dan’s teaching 4-H again. He enjoyed it last year. And I keep up my regular classes. But we’ll still have plenty of time to enjoy things like family bike rides (we finally found one of those seats that attaches to the back for Caleb…lately we’d only spotted the trailer ones), swimming, library story time, cookouts with friends, play dates, and Caden time alone at the grandparents’. I love summer.
I’ve been thinking about insecurity lately. For lots of reasons. One being it was the topic at church a week ago. He talked about how insecurity filters what’s coming in and going out in your perspective. And how it makes us foolish. He stood behind a screen that distorted his voice and our ability to see him clearly. I liked that visual.
Do you struggle with insecurity? I do. But like most people, not all the time or in every situation. Here’s the thing, though: In the past those situations that brought out my insecure tendencies? Used to be able to fake it. I could play the part of a secure person, even when I was feeling deeply insecure. Parenting was the final straw to that facade. It brought every anxious, insecure tendency I had to the surface. Fortunately, my faithful God has since been carefully walking through each one with me as I cooperate.
The chapter from Sunday was Hebrews 6:19: “We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where Jesus, who went before us, has entered on our behalf.”
The anchor we need? Behind the curtain, in the presence of God, firm and secure.
Of course, like most things, this can be a journey. Even though we’re entirely new creations in Him (2Cor5:17), it takes awhile to be transformed by the renewing of our minds (Rom12:2). I like how he pointed out on Sunday that the only solution is to die and go to heaven. It will continually be a struggle in how we choose to respond in insecurity-inducing situations on this planet. That frees me up to not wait around until I feel perfectly secure all the time before I offer anything to anyone. Whew.
“We have this hope as an anchor for the soul…” Love it.
Hope you had a great holiday weekend!