Last night at group my friend prayed for me.

 

She asked God to help me live in my weaknesses.

 

Have you ever been here?

 

At a women’s rally a couple months ago, a wise lady shared about her current stage of life being not in her comfort zone.  Ever.

 

She’s an introvert who doesn’t love meeting tons of new people.  She is currently serving God in a capacity that demands she rely on Him to do just that.

 

She brought up Moses to us.  When he told God to find someone else to do the job of going to Pharaoh, God didn’t give him a pep talk, listing all his good qualities.  He also didn’t blast him for doubting.

 

He said, “I will be with you.”

 

My comfort zone looks different.  I am an extrovert, but more importantly, not super structured.  Living in my weaknesses means doing things daily that, frankly, feel stifling.

 

I’m doing grown-up stuff like setting small, daily goals.  Because that’s what you do when your husband prefers structure to chaos.

 

I’m taking vitamins and working out when I’d rather just go hang out with my friends.  Because people are no longer paying me to get exercise and that’s what adults do.

 

I’m writing when I don’t feel inspired.  Because you can always edit bad writing.  You can’t edit an empty page.

 

I’m making sure the kitchen is clean at night.  Because that sets the next day up for success.

 

Now, this is not without issues.  I’m intentionally relying on Him as I take these small steps of obedience.  But it all still takes a lot of concentration for me.

 

For example, last week I was especially productive on Wednesday and Thursday.  By Friday, it’s like my brain was done.  On the way out the door for school, I realized oldest’s coat was still sopping wet in the washer.  It was 20 degrees out.

 

Later I couldn’t find my wedding ring.

 

Later still, at school pick up, I locked my keys in the car.

 

My school friends were all, That sounds about right.

 

I called Dan and he just chuckled.  (Well, he acted a bit put off, but he loves to be my knight in shining armor.  He has lots of practice.)

 

So I’ve not become superwoman over night.  I’m not even aiming for that.  Just trying to rely on Him in my weaknesses.

 

Because He promises I will be with You.